Its a wonderful time for new beginnings, and you're starting to feel good after a long period of insecurity. You are aiming high and setting your sights. But you have this little sludge that holds you back and you can't quite place what it is. You see where everything "should" be rosy, but you just aren't feeling it.
Check your anger. Many of us have it and it comes from a sense of powerlessness. It comes from feelings of being victims, or even feelings of being triumphant over possible victimization. Maybe for you its hiding in plain sight like in road rage, or yelling and bickering with your spouse. Whatever manifestation of it you are finding, if you are going through slush. Check your anger.